There were those who desired to follow You, and You told, them plainly that the Son of man had no place to lay His head. I never understood that until You came within me. You prayed for us who believe You. You said that we were not of this world even as You are not of this world. Now I am beginning to see.

For a long time I had supposed that I would find my niche in this world and still claim the gift of Your life. But there was never true happiness, there was no real contentment. I found that I was always looking forward for that “something” that would give me completeness.

Then I began to see You. I saw You in Your Flesh, I heard the Words You said. I saw the multitudes about You and wished that I were one of them. Yet all of those things are gone. The multitude is dead. Even in their life they did not follow You for long. You did not fit into their scheme of things. They had supposed that all their thoughts were established, and that when the Messiah would come He would fit into their plans. But You were apart from them. Your love reached them; they saw the might of Your hand, but understanding was not theirs.

Now I begin to see You. You did not come to fit into their plans, but You came so that they might forget themselves and know Your plan. And so I have learned that I must forget myself if I am to learn from You.

I carried on with the thought that those of this world would honor me and show me respect because of my love for You, but I find that their thoughts are established and I must either fit in, or be an outcast.

Now I feel that I have more of an understanding of Your Words when You say the birds have nests and the foxes have their dens, but that You have no place to lay Your head. Yet You walked through Your flesh life confidently because You knew that Your strength was not in people or their plans, but You were sustained and strengthened by Your Father. This knowledge made You independent of this world. No more was it in You to conform to what was, but Your very life was to give.

You left this World and became no more flesh so that I might be released from the bondage of this world. You have prepared this place of abiding for me so that I may be with You and have what You have. The very God who took You to Himself has consumed me so that I no longer am.

I can no longer fit in this world of flesh because I have seen You. There is a hunger within me that reaches out for the things of God, and it will not be satisfied with the shallow imitations of this world.

I no longer need a place in this world to “settle down,” because I have found my abiding place in You. I will no more become discontent because I have found that in You I am satisfied. No more will I look to the world, nor to what they would make You to become, rather I will look to You. I will become as You are because I see You as You are. You have given understanding to my soul.

I will walk confidently because I know that You are in me and I am sustained by You. I do not fit in this world, but You have prepared my abiding place, and it is there that I am made One with You.

-- Roy L. Stahl